Cass ☁️🎀【ღ𝑽𝑪𝒉𝒖𝒖】

Full Hiatus Announcement

I’m home now so I can acknowledge this without her staring at me 😂 This is gonna be a ramble because I’m tired but. Yeah. I’m not good at friendships and it takes me a while to completely trust someone wholeheartedly but once I do, you’re stuck with me. (Just ask Jenni and Ayline) But this is about my friendship with Koops. Koops was just thrown into my life a little over a year ago now. I wasn’t looking to click with someone. I was there to participate in a collab event and that’s it. But we clicked so fast. And through all of my antisocial periods and horrible life hurdles, she’s been there when I’m ready. She was patient and never pushed. And over time, we grew really close. She understood me and how my brain worked. And she became my person. But if you stopped me and ask how we grew so close, I’d draw a blank. Cuz it just. Happened. It felt like a soul connection, like I was talking to someone I’ve known forever. This weekend with her was the most natural and comfortable experience ever. I didn’t want it to end. Yes, there’s still little bumps you gotta traverse when meeting in-person for the first time (I’m very quiet IRL) but it quickly felt like I had just lived there all my life. Saying goodbye was hard. I’m a crybaby. And I know she’s only a 7 hour drive away but it’s not like I can just show up at her door whenever I’d like. I stayed an extra day. I put off leaving. I didn’t want the hug to end. And I didn’t want her to see me cry as I drove away. Once I turned the corner out of view I just started sobbing. The hard part is the uncertainty of when I’ll see her again. I don’t really have any friends I see IRL… I have friends I see at cons but actual outside-of-twitch friends… I don’t really have any. I didn’t wanna leave her. Tonight was a very hard drive home for me. But I wouldn’t have changed anything about this weekend. Except maybe my drunk mood swing on Saturday but we don’t gotta talk about that. I’m so glad everything felt normal and natural. I’m so glad I felt safe and comfortable and understood. I had the best time visiting Koops this weekend and although I missed my cats, I wish I didn’t have to leave. Because it feels like I left a piece of me with her and I’ll only be whole when I see her again. (Sorry I’m crying again) Platonic soulmates exist, and she’s mine 🩷💜

I’ll be home from Chicago tomorrow. I chose to stay an extra day because I don’t wanna leave her 🩷

It was “take your girlfriend to a baseball game” day~ White Sox won but it’s okay cuz it was her first game, I wanted her to have that happiness 🩷

So @KoopsieKoo and I went to Chinatown. Never been. Got to be a Chicago tourist for a little bit. We find these viral mystery dumplings in a store. Me : “it’s not gonna be the secret, no way” I buy it. We bring it home. I go to open it. “Hey Koops, what do you think it’s gonna be?” “What colors are there?” “Red, green, purple, yellow, blue, white” “… blue” I opened it and it’s like the data didn’t process right away and she’s hurrying over “NO FUCKING WAY” Got the secret glitter one

And today I made her take a photo with parrots and we saw a HUGE rat

I know it's not the best time to post this but... I'M NOT LEAVING! I am just only committing to 1 stream per week for a little bit~

Head mega hurts. Taking tonight easy. Will resume working on stuff tomorrow.

She can ruin me~ Congrats on the outfit debut @KoopsieKoo ilysm

Kept hearing all the RAVING reviews for this flavor of @AlaniNutrition~ It’s tonight’s beverage of choice for stream!

The unfortunate truth about doing stuff while you’re chronically ill, especially if you have an invisible illness, is that most people look at you while you’re recovering and don’t understand anything is wrong. With me, I normally take a day to recover after long trips. My body aches, my neck hurts. I need to refresh and recharge. But to outside people it looks like I’m just lazy and sleeping all day. It’s so frustrating because I don’t like being unproductive. And I didn’t choose for my body to be this way. I wish I was able to function like a normal, healthy person.

I got to spend the day with one of my best friends from streaming. We got matching cheese keychains. And I kept hugging her when it was time to say “goodbye” because I was sad and gonna miss her. I don’t have the vtuber pic right now, it’s on my tracking phone. So enjoy this pic from a self serve tap room

Literally just lost track of time because I’m high and was focused on petting my cat. Those chin scritches hitting hard. This was funnier in my head.

2026 is the year of so many friends getting Twitch Partner and I couldn't be happier for them ;w;

Oh. Oh boy.

*screaming* But also screaming cuz more achievements 🥲

I am in a strange mental funk. Seeing sorority sisters I went to college with getting married, having babies… Feeling like I should have been invited to things but I haven’t maintained relationships. Still invited to the wedding though. But no bachelorette or bridal shower. Which is fine but it was “my group” while in Greek life and now I just… feel alone. I feel like I’m not achieving anything. I’m not having kids (at least not right now), I’m working on improving my health but it’s made me kind of socially reclusive I feel like I’ve done nothing besides failing at living life…