I was in the middle of an episode in my dream when I woke up. IN MY DREAM.
Now I wanna finish the meltdown I started there 😭😭😭😭😭
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january: yay!
february : yay!
march : IM GONNA KILL MYSELF
april : IM GONNA KILL MYSELF
may : IM GONNA KILL MYSELF
june : IM GONNA KILL MYSELF
july : IM GONNA KILL MYSELF
august : IM GONNA KILL MYSELF
september : IM GONNA KILL MYSELF
october : IM GONNA KILL MYSELF
I just had an episode. Screaming, crying, literally throwing everything I could see. There was somebody else in the room. He tried to calm me. But I said the meanest things. He left me alone. I turned around and begged for help. Now Im calm and I can't stop feeling ashamed.
Suddenly I'm jealous of people who can function normally even when they're stressed. Idk how they do it, my whole body shuts down. I wish I didn't have to relearn how to feel things in a less intense way

















