Andre Bellfield

This account is for people who are grateful for their life and still want more from it. The bills are paid. The job is fine. And you still wonder, "Is this it?" A lot of people feel that way and keep it to themselves. You're in the right place.

Wanting more can feel impossible when the only way you can picture it is starting over. Quit the job. Go back to school. Move. With a mortgage and a family, none of that is realistic. A lot of people want more and want to keep what they have.

A lot of people get home from work with no energy left. The couch, the phone, a show you're half watching. Three hours later it's bedtime. Wishing your evenings had more in them is a sign you still want something for yourself.

There are two months left in the year. It's easy to think that's not enough time to do anything, so you wait for January. Two months is about nine weeks. You've done more with less time than that.

A lot of capable people pass on opportunities and regret it later. At the time, passing felt sensible. Then someone else took it and did fine, and you thought, "I could have done that." It doesn't mean you couldn't have handled it.

Nobody decides to live an average life. It happens one reasonable choice at a time. You do what the job requires. You see friends when it works out. You deal with your health when something hurts. Each of those makes sense on the day you choose it.

"I should be further along by now." You've probably thought it more than once this year. From the outside you're doing fine. Nobody sees what you're comparing yourself to. You only feel behind when you can still see where you want to be.

A lot of people don't go after more because they're afraid of losing what they have. It took years to build. A stable job. A home. A routine that works. Being careful with what you have and wanting more are both signs you take your life seriously.

At some point, people stop expecting more from you. Your boss is happy with your work. Your friends think you're doing great. Some people miss being pushed and feel odd admitting it. Being expected to grow is a way of being believed in.

You probably can't name every goal you set in January. Some you dropped by February. Some you never started. One you still think about. The goal you still remember ten months later is the one you still want.

"We should get together soon" is something friends say and mean. You've said it to the same person four times this year. Neither of you opened a calendar. There was no falling out. Life got full on both sides.

Your oldest friends knew you when you had big plans. Nobody brings it up now. You get together and talk about work, the kids and the game. A lot of friend groups are full of people who still want things and stopped saying so.

You've probably told yourself this year is basically over. Most of what you wanted to do didn't happen, so you push it all to January. If what you didn't get to still bothers you, you're not done with this year.

Some years are difficult to remember, and that can bother a person. You remember the year you moved. The year the baby came. The year you changed jobs. Wanting a year you'll remember is a reasonable thing to want.

It can feel wrong to want more when things are going well. People feel like they need a problem before they're allowed to want something different. You don't have to be in a crisis to want more.

Some people have felt capable of more for years, and the feeling has never gone away. They expected it to pass after the raise, or once life got easier. Life got easier, and they still feel it. People don't forget what they're capable of.

Married people can talk all day and only talk about the schedule. Who's picking up. What's for dinner. Whether the bill got paid. If you miss the conversations you used to have, your spouse probably does too.

A lot of people have an idea saved in their phone that they've never acted on. It's in the list with the grocery items and the passwords. A bad idea you would have deleted. If you've kept it this long, you still believe in it.

Many people who feel made for more would keep the life they have. Would you trade your spouse? No. Your kids? Never. The house, the friends? No. You can want more and want to stay right where you are.