BeerZarrGood

To the lovers and the haters, I just want someone to love ME. Not the idea of me. My true heart. My true soul. I might act over-confident on here at times. But when I do that, it's because my whole life, I was the opposite. I always told myself I couldn't. I always thought the worst. I always talked down on myself. Told myself I wasn't worthy. I didn't deserve anything. A life of being my own worst enemy. Until finally one day something snapped inside me. I couldn't stand who I had become. Alcohol was about 99% responsible for my negative mindset, endless self-loathing, and victim mentality. As soon as I got sober, it was like a switch flipped. Now I can't stand being a victim. I can't stand other people who are victims. Not because I don't sympathize because I absolutely do, but because I can never surround myself with people like that. It's not narcissistic to protect yourself or put yourself on a pedestal above those low energies when you worked so hard to escape that world. I cannot risk absorbing their energies and falling back. Because too many people have the wrong idea about me. They have no idea how far mentally I actually have come and how many barriers of protection I have had to put into place to remain in the place I am in. I used to let every negative comment get under my skin. I used to let people loosh me so easily. People who have followed me long enough know. To then get called a narcissist because people love to project. They call you a narc for finally loving yourself. For finally choosing yourself. For not falling back into your usual patterns. So this message is to my haters who like to project THEIR narcissism onto me: Fuck you and fuck off. Because you won't ever make me go back and you will never take away my self-love because I absolutely adore myself now. Truly. I feel like I have nearly mastered my own mind, body, and soul and there's no hater out there that will ever take that away from me. So keep on hating. I will keep on thriving. Up is the only direction. If you're not heading there, I'm leaving you behind. ✌️