Waiting For Instant

This is the house that #shame built-- You are not permanently bad-- You are not all bad-- You are not bad.

This is the house that #shame built-- You are not as bad as they told you that you were-- You are not inherently bad--

life is kicking my ass

I'm frightened.

I don't even know why.

The #lifemare Chapter 47 cont. "Surgical biopsies, next to your heart. . ."

Don't let it in. #fear

One fear leads to another fear leads to another fear leads to another...ad infinitum.

just when you think it couldn't get any more complex, they say, "we think we should do a PETscan to look at THEM better."

I still feel guilty that you died alone. But i didn't abandon you. You abandoned me.

Most don't understand my #sensitivity nor how what befalls a stranger can ruin my day. #empathy

Tonight I am just alone, not lonely.

the difference between alone and lonely

So lonely without you.

This is going to be even harder than I thought.

Filled with longing to see you. Glad you are safely arrived.

This day is passing so slowly without you.

How can I last that long without you?