GoldenMustache

By living the life I have in combination with my family’s words and treatment of me, I am very nearly convinced it would very nearly be a net positive if I ended my life. The thoughts of my family’s opinions on my suicide fill my mind, in short, that I was not meant for this world but that I was meant to die bc I cannot live like a normal person. I am incapable of cleaning and doing basic self-care things; this makes it so my own mom is annoyed by living with me and my grandfather said if I don't change no one will want to live with me. This issue makes it so I can't be a wife as well. I think my family would support my assisted suicide if they were more bold and I wasn’t as young as I am. If I fail at living with my dad before I can afford to move into my own apartment, I’ll likely kill myself or I guess just be homeless. So this is why I ask for prayers. Please pray for me or have masses said for me if you can, bc this is my last chance at having a home with family. After this if I fail, yet again, it is very likely I’ll be homeless or dead. If I don’t post for a year or so one of those would be the reason.