Yall long rant ahead i’m so sorry but i am STRUGGLING with my health I’m going on 5 months of little/no hearing and constant ear infections because of my busted ear drums. Everything is so quiet yet so loud. All i hear is loud ringing and everything else is muffled. Today, I have about 5% on my right and 10% hearing on my left. I have had severe swelling in front, behind my ear and into my neck for months. Lympnodes are hard and angry. Blurry vision in the ONE good eye i use to see. Fevers over and over localized to my ears. Excruciating pain and constant ear popping with every breath, cough, sneeze or sniffle. Air hits my ears wrong and i’m so dizzy and nauseous i am down for the count. This is my daily life. Has been for almost half a year. I am so fucking scared and sick of this. I want this to end. I feel so unlike myself and i miss music. I miss hearing my family. I miss talking to my kids. I miss watching shows without having to only focus on the subtitles so hard i get migraines. I miss talking without it hurting or blowing out my ears. I miss making content. I want my life back 😭 Thursday’s appointment cant come fast enough. Please please cross any appendages you fucking got because i need answers and i need relief. I cant keep living like this. It has taken my entire fucking summer and i feel so guilty. It has taken exxxotica nj from me. My income is FUCKED from hospital bills and my savings is drained and i am drowning. Please dont let it take spooky season or Miami from me, too 😞 i just want to be able to hear normally. Just one side is all i ask 😭 AHHHHHHH somebody sedate me please 💔 if you’re feeling kind, or want to help a girl with crippling medical debt, my cashapp is $xxxenoviakun literally anything helps and would mean the world to me. All tips will go towards my medical funds right now. I am very bad off infection wise, but I am determined to get better. Thanks for listening to my annoying ass. 🫂