I titled this "I can't get up" and thought yeah, this is something everyone goes through, this is just life, I need to try harder.
Misdiagnosed, masked my whole life, multiple burnouts, years of self-criticism, thinking I was weak, not trying hard enough, poor living situations despite living in a first world country and this is what our fellow neurodivergent people have to say. There is nuance in everthing-
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Spoke to my soul. Fuck man, I have so much to say about this topic. I'm 22 in 3 months, and when I realized I kept falling back to old habits and in fact had gotten worse, I knew I couldn't go on like this. Something is wrong, and it's not in my control.
Woke up, had breakfast, marinated chicken, and washed the dishes. This alone made me feel accomplished and even happy. Except, now i'm here, doing nothing because I have to mentally prepare myself for new tasks. Even when I write them down and do them, I feel very tiredafterwards
Very upsetting knowing this isn't something people should deal with. I'm not physically tired, just mentally. I'm tired of having to prepare myself everyday just to do mundane tasks.
While I journal, I sometimes skip letters, words, or forget as i'm writing what I wanted to say. I recently realized it's because I have multiple monologues talking at once in my head. And no, this isn't dyslexia, never had trouble spelling or reading.
I'd make vent art like these and still think I can push through and make it. For anyone that can relate, please make that doctor's appointment if you are able to. If not, do proper research on (au)ADHD and be kinder on yourself.
ADHD is realizing you have ADHD, forgetting about it, then realizing it again when symptoms genuinely intervene with daily simple tasks. "oh" I say, it's not that i'm weak or aren't trying hard enough. And then repeat.
You think you're self aware, but then you reach a breaking point because you do not ask or admit that you need help. Desperately clinging to the thought that this is something you need to overcome on your own, and that everyone struggles with to some extent. It's not.
This hell i'm in. Genuinely paralysing, neurotypicals don't know how good they have it.
I was looking through my replies because I genuinely forgot I wasn't a full time lurker on Twitter back then and I see this
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