> be me > chilling > unfocused for 24 hr > trying to lock tf in > something feels off > can't quite place it > suddenly turn around > huge spider on my wall > like nearly as big as my hand > oh fuck > shit my pants > carefully move > get spray > spray him > he recoils at once > takes it like a champ > spray him again > adrenaline pumping > just an instinct > really big spider wtf > hate looking at it > spray him a third time > he's still just standing there on the wall > falls > catches himself > crawls back up > does this several times > eventually walks horizontal > finds his way next to a lamp > on top of my cats little orange tube thing > don't understand > it keeps crawling > crawls exactly to edge > really well illuminated > not even trying to hide > positions itself perfectly > turns slowly toward me > legs starting to slow down > looks at me > raises a single leg > salutes me with its leg > collapses and starts to die > legs are curling in now > immediately no longer feel fear > its still looking at me > I'm looking at it > I suddenly think about its life > how long was it in my house? > how many insects did it eat? > was it actually protecting me? > look back at spider once more > salute it back > tears in my eyes writing this > it twitches and stops moving > stand there for 20 mins oh my god what have I done I am filled with such immense regret I should have just put him outside RIP sweet spider prince, I'm sorry my noble brother