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October and Q4 are finally here.
I took September as a transition period from having no time and running around with a kid full-time to having A LOT of time for myself, since said kid is now officially in school.
I find myself at a crossroads of sorts, and whatever I decide to do, or not do, over the course of the next year will determine our path as a family for many years to come.
I'd be lying if I said I am ready, or that I am not scared.
I am scared shitless.
But determined to give it one more try.
One last hurrah before hitting the desk or going back to academia.
Except this time, I ACTUALLY DO HAVE TIME to focus.
So what changed?
I entered crypto as a pregnant woman, with all the connotations that that entailed at the time.
I learned about the simplest things during the first year of my kid's life. Think MCAP vs FDV. Think LPs. Think an act as simple as bridging.
Then things spiraled from there. Airdrop farming. Design and art commissions. Some VERY unsuccessful perp trading adventures. Lots and lots of bagholding in spot - mainly because I was a delusional believer in many of those projects.
Also, risk taking is not exactly hardwired into my brain due to my upbringing and environment.
All of that was crammed in alongside being a mother, juggling a toddler's livelihood, safety, early learning, skills and basically everything else that came with being the primary parent, away from my immediate family.
So TIME - and focus - were my major complaints.
Being (almost) the only companion to a child is not an easy feat. I am not a person who settles. I've always been the studious, high-achiever type, so I spent a lot of time trying to get my kid to read, write, discuss, learn logic and reason by the time he was literally 4.
Very proud of what we achieved on that front so far.
But I've been noticing something this past month, now that I have more time.
"Brain atrophy" as @jords mentioned it in his podcast is a real thing.
Spending most of my time with a small child means limited vocabulary, limited ability to express deep or long thoughts properly, and diminished reading and writing time - which leads to diminished skills in general.
Combine that with the degeneracy of crypto that I have thrown myself into over the past few years and the scrolling culture we've all been sucked into as well...
And you get an overtired, exhausted mother who is SCARED shitless that she has lost the plot for herself.
And that's the last 5 years in a nutshell.
I've been thinking about this a lot lately, and @jordspodcast actually pushed some of these thoughts further for me. There's something about hearing other people articulate the specificity of this space and the lives we've built around it - that makes you stop and look at your own situation a little differently.
I am still learning.
Still trying to find an edge in an ever-changing market.
Still trying to figure out where I actually fit into all of this.
But the crossroads are real.
And, honestly, this feels like my last chance of "making it".
And by making it, I mean a million in the bank, a small farm somewhere over the Mediterranean, and lots and lots of time to travel with my child.
does it sound like a generic dream when I write it down?
But I would genuinely love to take him to every continent by the time he's 10 or so.
To that end, and to this dream, I will give it everything I have this time around.
There is no Plan B.
Plan B is just life happening.
I'd much rather spend my days learning about privacy onchain, understanding how these systems actually work, finding weird edges in markets and building things than sitting at a desk drawing plans to renovate someone else's kitchen.
Maybe that's naive.
Maybe I'm massively underestimating how difficult this is.
Maybe a year from now I'll be writing a very different post.
But for the first time in years, I actually have the time to find out.
So let's see what happens :)
CT is all doom these days . It’s easy to get caught up in it, lose perspective and become a wrecker like @jords mentioned in his doomerism
episode of the @jordspodcast
It resonated with me a lot so here I am, trying to battle this doomer’s mindset.
Perhaps we could all use a reminder on why we are here.
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Why is the UK fear mongering us with this black sky news? Not liking where this is headed
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.@machibigbrother gib trial account I promise I'll get liquidated less than 8 times today 🫡
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I expected us to nuke significantly more on news of this hack
Is the dump coming or are “bull markets” really immune to 6.3 billion dollars BINANCE hack!
If that’s the case LFG!
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Bottom ticked a few charts for 30-40% gains
I quite like this type of trading, let’s see how it goes :-)
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There are at least 10 houses for sale on my street and the one behind me. TEN. 😭
I’ve never seen this many “For Sale” signs in my area.
Is this what a buyer’s market looks like? Because the FOMO is real and I might actually cry. Damn it.
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OH MY GOD DO I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS CARD 😱
The kindest community out there and that matters a lot to me ♥️ @0xAlphaGEMs
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Would you recognise the comfort of solitude without having known the familiarity and warmth of company,
or appreciate the fullness of a family table when all you’ve known is eating alone?
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The timeline is raving about Black Monday today think it might be time to listen to the latest @jordspodcast on doomerism.
Late night workout here I come...
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