Overthinking Era ✨

I don’t write to impress, I write because sometimes, silence isn’t loud enough (Follow if u feel it too)

Rumination…..

hopefully this night is not gonna be endless again ….

accepting it cuz wtf i can do …..

another endless night….

i feel like i was a mistake in everyone’s life…

Wish this night end soon ....

Fading away from everyone's life slowly, cuz they don't need someone like me anymore.... Well who wants to be with someone who hurts them or make them in constant fear of being hurt anytime anywhere...... Not me either....

I don’t want explanations, conversations, or anyone trying to understand me.... I just want a quiet room, a tired mind, a cigarette and enough silence to forget how empty I’ve been feeling....

Imma isolate myself completely..... No texts, no calls, nothing. It’s better for everyone… at least they won’t have to get hurt by me anymore or live in the constant fear of being hurt again..... It's just me, my emptyness and a box of cigarettes.....

I’m not addicted to the smoke..... I’m addicted to the few minutes where I don’t have to think....

Some nights, all I have is a cigarette, a thousand thoughts, and tears I refuse to explain.....

I light another cigarette, hoping the smoke can fill what’s missing inside.....

Crying till fall asleep is my new routine since 2 - 3 weeks lol lmao

Feels like shutting myself in a dark room with nothing but my thoughts and cigarettes

Expectation hurts….

Shedding some b#### actually helps ngl lol …. Should’ve done earlier…..