@becfeast

Yeah

 Everywhere
Joined March 2011
  • Tweets20K
  • Following758
  • Followers851
I’ve accepted my fate today. Picture semi related
1
18
402
Shame is almost unbelievable in how fucked up it is. I have deep true love for myself and my life and yet every time the feeling of my right to exist comes up I become convinced the people of the world are pining for me to be slaughtered finally. Insane and nonsensical and yet
2
79
I am constantly having dreams where people pretend I do not exist and I am left ashamed of the burden of my existence as an evil force on society who can only exist out of pathetic spite. Will these ever go away?
1
4
121
We have always been, in a certain measure, strangers to our own lives.
69
1
273
5,825
One small thing is enough
2
71
increasingly convinced that the real “emotional work” is sobbing fully without any resistance to it, it’s not sad at all, there’s no suffering, just removal. sobbing isn’t necessarily about sadness, it’s to muscle tension what pooping is to the gut
58
366
67
4,272
164,354
You have to let these things out sometimes or else they’ll fester but then you straighten your hair for the first time in years, realize you look like a young Cher, and remember that you don’t have the will for weakness anymore because there’s too much more out there for you
Rebecca@becfeast21h
Just for tonight I am going to let myself be weak
1
95
Rebecca retweeted
rachel
@rachcorrineOct 26
You get older and nothing phases you. We live in a fucked up world with fucked up people. You think something is impossible until it happens. You think “that’ll never happen to me” and then it does. Someone lies someone cheats someone steals someone dies. Just like that. The soul separates from the body. It’s over. A daunting fact but it’s a fact. You start to learn how to roll with the punches. When the impossible happens you pivot. When you don’t recognize the person in the mirror, you face them. You accept what you can’t change. You fight like hell to change the rest. Who are you going to be now? What would love do now? Your options remain the same. Sink or swim. Fear or love. Don’t or do. The middle is worse than death. If you’re not all in, you’re out. In or out.
4
7
2
211
14,149
husband who finds wife so beautiful he invents new lenses to capture her
Simon Sarris
@simonsarrisOct 25
I was hesitant to add synthetic grain to Camera Nocta, but using ProRaw images (at 2x zoom) adds some unfortunate skin smoothing and a little grain is the perfect thing to even it out again so I'm adding it. It will be adjustable in develop mode.
6
5
123
2,429
The thing they don’t prepare you for with losing weight is how nothing will ever fit you again. Even your shoes and rings will be too big. I have no idea what size I am in anything but it’s beyond my scope to look into it
5
187
Just for tonight I am going to let myself be weak
1
7
377
Rebecca retweeted
Rebecca@becfeast17 Nov 2024
Remember what happened last time
1
1
184
people asking random questions to their librarian
15
159
31
3,312
126,425
Rebecca retweeted
lowbie@archivepilledOct 26
Cy Twombly, 'Portrait of a Young Man' (1962)
8
188
10
1,242
25,932
First day of a new job tomorrow and I might feel the same way about beginnings. Much more fear there though
Rebecca@becfeastOct 25
I just really don’t like when things come to an end
2
6
220
Henri #Matisse - Reclining Woman in Arab Robe , 1941.
1
52
411
6,590
9
1,762
51
9,728
137,925
Around 1500, Hieronymus Bosch painted sheet music on a sinner's bare butt in hell. 500 years later, someone transcribed and performed it. Now you can hear the original butt song from hell.
391
3,551
527
26,311
1,224,575
Time does not exist in our kitchen and the amount of cleaning I do every morning and every night is as if it was being undone immediately
1
3
208
I turn around and the messes reappear and multiply. They growl at me sometimes
88
Load more