ivy ⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆

i have to weigh 45kg by the end of the year

last week i kind of lost my damn mind and thought maybe i should gain some weight and eat more 🤣🤣 so i gained weight (7x binge, hell yeah) and now im crying because im fat 👍🏻 im sorry i betrayed you all; starting tomorrow, im back in the game

"just eat intuitively!" yeah, of course!! if only my intuition didn't keep telling me that eating a whole jar of nutella along with two loaves of sandwich bread is a fantastic idea

if i had known that my life would turn out like this i would have killed myself a long time ago

i can’t explain it but 80% of my binges happened on sundays 😵‍💫 it’s always fucking sunday

how can i simultaneously hate everything about myself and believe that im masterpiece?

when i read tweets on #edtwt i come to the conclusion that we’re all the same and every experience we have is canon event

today last cheat day of my life and total lock in tomorrow 🤝🏻 43 kg by the end of the year

„why are you so sad all the time?" i wanna kill myself since i was 14

sometimes, when i start binge circle i think i need to gain a bit of weight because then ill have the motivation to start starving myself all over again

i wanna isolating myself from everyone, not talking to anyone, doing nothing just being alone with myself

however 43kg 🤙🏻