Suicide is very selfish, but I’m already perfectly isolated. If I boxed up everything in the apartment beforehand and paid a month’s rent in advance, I’d be forgotten inside of a week.

My dream is to die and have no one care

too much, wanna die

holy shit it’s so bad

Punch me in the throat, I’m fat af

Surviving, but I really fucking don’t want to

I got so close

I think about ending it all every day without fail, but I kinda think everyone does.

Unshakable ignominy isn’t anybody’s ideal situation, but accepting this as the new normal is bringing a measure of peace.

I give up

Today I will commit to thinking positively and now it is X official.

I should go

Living like this is fucking ridiculous

Make it stop

no reason to live, too sleepy to die

come back

kill me i’m shit

if i was a mega man boss, i’d be garbage, man

It really would be better for everyone. Work decided I’m not promotable and no one depends on me existing. All my friends live in the computer and I could be easily forgotten within a week, plus suicide would save everyone the trouble of pretending to like my shit content.