Adyashanti once said: "Enlightenment is a destructive process. It has nothing to do with becoming better or being happier. Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It's seeing through the facade of pretence. It's the complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true." I resonate with that..

In the early 1980s, a 19-year-old bicycle racer in California read about enlightenment in a book and decided he was going to get it. His name was Stephen Gray. He had no guru and no monastery. He had the discipline of an athlete who was used to winning by training harder than everyone else. What followed was six years of the most stubborn seeking you can imagine. He built a small meditation hut in his parents’ backyard. By day he worked in his father’s machine shop, and then he walked out to the hut and sat, two, three, sometimes four hours a day. He found a Zen teacher, sat long silent retreats, and trained his mind the way he had trained his legs: harder, longer, more. Every hour on the cushion was another attempt to get somewhere, to break through, to finally arrive. Then one day, sitting in that hut, he made a decision. Today he would break through. Within seconds, the whole effort collapsed, and a thought came that he had never let himself think: “I can’t do this.” What came next was so intense he was sure he was going to die. Energy tore through his body, his heart raced, and instead of fighting it, he let it happen. Then everything stopped. In his own words, there was just space. He got up, bowed to the little Buddha statue in the hut, and burst out laughing. For six years he had been chasing the Buddha. In that moment he saw that the Buddha he had been chasing was what he was. Think about what that means. The thing he had been trying to reach was the one doing the reaching. Every hour of effort had been the seeker looking for himself. Today the world knows Stephen Gray as Adyashanti. For almost thirty years he taught people all over the world, and he kept repeating the one thing most seekers don’t want to hear. He put it in five words. Enlightenment is a destructive process. It has nothing to do with becoming better or happier, he said. It is the crumbling away of untruth. Most of us are still sitting in the hut. > Meditating to become calmer. > Reading to become wiser. > Doing the work to become a better version of ourselves. Stephen Gray trained for six years to win enlightenment. It came the moment he lost. Not because effort is useless. Because the one making the effort was the only thing standing in the way.

There is no “you” having anxiety or suffering. It’s an illusion. Let it go.

In 1909, on a beach in southern India, a man looked at a thin, quiet boy and announced he had found the next Messiah. The man was Charles Leadbeater, a leader of the Theosophical Society, who claimed he could see auras. The boy was the son of one of the Society’s employees. Leadbeater said the boy’s aura held no trace of selfishness. His name was Jiddu Krishnamurti. What happened next was one of the strangest projects in spiritual history. The Society’s president, Annie Besant, became his legal guardian. He was taken to England, educated, and trained for one purpose: to become the vehicle for the coming World Teacher. In 1911, they built an organisation around him, the Order of the Star in the East, with Krishnamurti at its head. It grew into a global movement with more than 43,000 members. A Dutch baron gave him a castle with 5,000 acres of woodland. In 1927, Besant declared publicly that the World Teacher was here. Thousands were waiting for him to speak as the Messiah. On August 3, 1929, at a camp in Ommen in the Netherlands, he finally did. In front of Annie Besant and about 3,000 members, he dissolved the entire order. "Truth is a pathless land," he told them. No religion, no sect, and no organisation could lead anyone to it. A belief could not be organised. He did not want followers. He gave back the castle. He returned the money and the land. People who had spent twenty years preparing to follow him were told there was nothing to follow. Think about what that took. He was 34. He had been handed everything a spiritual teacher could want: devotees, wealth, land, a global platform, and a ready-made identity as the saviour of humanity. And he walked away from the one thing almost nobody walks away from. Being someone. For the next 57 years, he travelled the world saying the same uncomfortable thing in a hundred different ways. No authority can see the truth for you. Not a guru, not a method, not him. You have to watch your own mind, the fear, the comparison, the endless striving to become something, until you see that the one watching is made of the same thing it’s watching. He put it in four words. The observer is the observed. Most of us are still waiting for someone to arrive. The right teacher. The right method. The day we’ll finally be ready. In 1929, the World Teacher arrived. And the first thing he did was send everyone home. Not because there was nothing to find. Because no one else could ever find it for you.

If you want to dramatically deepen your sense of inner peace, learn to return to the awareness behind your thoughts. Worries about the future, memories of the past, the constant need to control everything. Most of it is just the mind pulling you away from what you already are. Be still, recognize the awareness that is always here, and let everything else come and go.

If you want real freedom, stop trying to feel better and start getting better at feeling, letting every emotion that arises (fear, uncertainty, irritation) stay as long as it needs without a single thought trying to fix it. Whatever you fully allow is finally free to leave.

In 2017, a book about yoga appeared on Amazon with no author photo. Kriya Yoga Exposed: The Truth about Kriya Yoga Gurus and Organizations. The author was called SantataGamana. He had no face, no biography, no ashram, no lineage, and no organization asking for loyalty. There was only a pen name, and a book that did something spiritual books rarely do. It questioned the people selling the path. More books followed: on kundalini, on samadhi, on turiya, on lucid dreaming, on tantra. One of them, The Yoga of Consciousness, held 25 practices that all pointed at the same thing: not a new state to reach, but the awareness you already are. People all over the world read them. Thousands left reviews. And nobody knew who had written them. Think about how unusual that is. The spiritual world runs on personalities. Faces on walls. Gurus with followers, followers with gurus. Robes, titles, organizations, Instagram accounts. The teacher often becomes the thing people chase, and the teaching becomes the price of admission. SantataGamana took the person out of it. You couldn't worship him. You couldn't follow him. You couldn't build an image of him in your head, because there was nothing to build it from. All you had was the pointing. And the pointing always went back to you. > Who is reading this sentence? > What notices the thought that says you aren't there yet? > When you look for the one who is looking, what do you actually find? For six years, a man with no face kept asking readers to find the one who has no face. Then, in 2023, he published Liberation: A Spiritual Autobiography, revealing who was behind the pen name. His name is Av Neryah. I know this story from the inside. Because I was one of those readers. For years, his books were my teacher. I practised from them. I argued with them. I went back to them when everything else stopped making sense. In 2021, I sent an email to a man I had never seen. Three years later, he was guiding me himself. Av Neryah is my teacher, but more importantly, a friend.. I won't try to convince you of what he has realized. That was never the point of his books, and it isn't the point of this post. But here is what years of being guided by someone I couldn't see taught me. The guidance never came from the face. It came from the one thing he kept pointing to. The one thing I had never seen either. THE ONE who is LOOKING.

The older I get, the more I understand: Peace isn't about having more. It's about needing less. Less approval. Less explaining. Less proving. Less chasing. Less caring who doesn't understand. I'm not becoming someone new. I'm finally becoming myself again. What did you stop needing as you got older?

I hope I'm not the first person to tell you this but there's an intelligence operating behind the scenes, doing all heavy work for you which means that your only job is to let go and trust it 100%.

"Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery; none but ourselves can free our minds." - Bob Marley Here's how: Most of us live on autopilot: Emotion → Thought → Action We feel something, our mind creates a story around it, and we react to that story as if it were the truth. But there's another way. Emotion → Pause (technique, reminder, journaling, breath etc..) → Observe + Feel The key is to interrupt the automatic pattern. Whenever you get caught up in your mind, remember: You don't have to believe every thought. You don't have to act on every emotion. You don't have to fight or suppress what you're feeling. Instead, pause. Notice the story your mind is telling you. Bring your attention back to your body. Allow yourself to feel the emotion without immediately trying to explain it, fix it, or escape it. The goal isn't to control your thoughts or emotions. It's to stop being controlled by them. That's where freedom begins.

If you want to feel more liberated, the greatest thing you can do is allow yourself to feel every emotion that arises (fear, uncertainty, irritation) without trying to think your way out of it. Freedom comes from feeling what you've spent your life trying to escape.

99% of people aren't addicted to their phone They're addicted to NEVER feeling bored > In line at the store > Waiting for the food to heat > Two minutes on the toilet The second there's nothing going on, the hand reaches... and that reach is the whole problem in miniature. Because boredom is just the doorway to what's underneath. Restlessness, emptiness and the stuff you don't want to meet. So you never meet it.. and it quietly runs your life from the basement. Try it once. Two minutes. No phone. No music. No jerking off. Let it get uncomfortable. Let it get BORING. Usually something softer is right on the other side The hard part is realizing you've spent years avoiding the exact silence you keep saying you want.

Observe your thoughts. Observe without believing them. Observe until you realize you’re the observer. Observe the anger before you hit send. Observe the fear you’ve had since childhood. Observe what’s been here all your life. Five minutes a day can change absolutely everything.

You need to be presence-maxxing. Putting the phone down. Feeling the boredom. Relentlessly coming back to this moment. Nobody wants to die realizing they were never actually there for their own life.

Just did another TRE (Trauma Release Exercise), 45 minutes ago and I'm blown away. I feel SOOOO much lighter in body - mind - spirit than 45 minutes ago. I'm smiling for no reason, im sitting up straight in my chair (not sure why but it feels good af). This is my third week doing it and today was honestly a game changer. The shakings were strong and so was the relief afterwards. Gonna keep doing it until new year at least and keep you guys update.

"Protect your energy" has become the most spiritual way to avoid people > Not every uncomfortable person is draining you > Not every trigger is a red flag > Not every conflict needs a boundary Sometimes the discomfort is yours And the people triggering you are just showing you where you're still holding on

You meditate every morning So why are you still triggered by 10am? Because you're practicing peace in the one place nothing happens The cushion is easy Life is the test The email. The bank app. The comment that stings That's where presence actually gets built Don't leave your practice on the cushion Bring it to the moment it gets hard

Only men understand this.

This one question taught me more than my master's degree at university: "Where is it in your body right now?" The story is in your head. The truth of this moment is in your chest. Ask it next time you're triggered, then just observe, feel and let go.

IN A WORLD FULL OF PEOPLE ADDICTED TO : - Scrolling - Noise - Being busy - Never being alone BE THE ONE WHO CAN SIT WITH : - Silence - Boredom - Uncertainty - An empty evening - Himself Trust me, that's where your real life begins.