I think you need to disconnect from social media and all the distractions and get in tune with your true desires. I realized that I lost my passion for the game long ago, I was so caught up in trying to prove everyone wrong that I lost my path. If you can find yourself and truly still want to compete, time is still plentiful and you will make it if you push through the harder times. I think something I realized is that alot of social media & valorant is performative & nobody cares as much as you think about you or previous opinions on you, if you start to perform like a tier 1 player you will be given tier 1 opportunities eventually.