thinking about moonbin always

I don’t usually talk about April 19. It’s a day that still sits heavy in my chest, like a quiet ache that never fully leaves. I remember waking up to the news, the kind that doesn’t fully register at first… like your heart knows before your mind can catch up. Everything felt still and wrong. I live in LA and knowing Eunwoo was also here too at the time, so far from home, made me panicked. My thoughts kept drifting thinking this can’t be real. This has to be a misunderstanding. I thought of Eunwoo being here at a time like this, wondering how lonely that moment must have felt. Just the night before, I had been leaving messages for Bin on Weverse. I lit a candle and sat there for a long time, just crying. It was one of the hardest days I’ve ever experienced in this fandom. But I also remember how we came together. Spaces filled with prayer, people from all over the world holding each other up. That kind of love stays with me. I don’t speak about this day often because it’s still hard… but today I wanted to speak about our Moonbin. The pain hasn’t gotten easier with time but having all of you to lean on has always brought me comfort. Let’s lean on each other today. We love and miss you our Moon 🌙🤍