i have severe social anxiety and am queer, trans, disabled, geeky, multiple, poly, a ritual abuse surivor, and a linguist. trying to live in the tao as i can.
seattle
Joined February 2007
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decompressing with beer and chips. have to thank the broken ones for letting us get through that. I know it put a LOT of pressure on them.
holy crap glad job interview is over. no idea how I did. so much anxiety and dissociation, I don't even feel the Xanax I took
super anxious. job interview tomorrow is definitely looming at this point. wish i knew what would help all of us til then
i wonder... how to hold on to functioning when we do find it?
what's the best use of our time until we lose it again?
but we always lose touch with that again, and get clouded over in a million ways, a million kinds of mental debris and conditions
it really is programming that keeps us from achieving. sometimes for a moment when certain ones are out so much seems possible.
but i did manage to put the bread ingredients in again. this time with the kneading paddle!! so i guess i was pretty productive.
got stuff to clean with at the store (thanks to @lazyqueer) but probably can't clean today... exhausted.
so i am making some bread now not because i was really up for it but because i need to have bread in the house. hence, other century.