Overblown reactions. The mind is not analogous to the body. For men “respect” is a high bar- meaning you would defer to them for important decisions, and trust them in life or death scenarios. Would someone on antidepressants best be described as someone respectable? Not always.
Having an inner monologue is important, because if you think out loud the masses will literally look for reasons to kill you.
I’ve enjoyed spending my Sunday(last day as a free man) posting with @sunsequel2 on this website. No regrets.
Remembering this post today because I posted some “it’s over” ah shit and it’s getting many views.
I need to try and stop being a little bitch even online because it leaks out. Unless I can transmute sadness into something actually novel, it’s probably better to hold back on it.
Moving in with a girl was helpful to my mental health in a very specific way. Before, I would allow myself to wallow in pessimism, "we deserve a little despair as a treat". But when you live with someone you love your pessimism becomes infectious, so now both of you are sad and you hate to see her sad so you go "hey, I was just being a little bitch, I didn't actually mean it". And if you both do this, if you both make an earnest attempt at being happy for one another, then BAM suddenly you ARE happy because being happy for someone else is the only happiness there is (conversely, depression was a self-directed narcissistic state of mind in my case). I suspect having kids is like this times 1000x.
Fuck that post was so cringe and gay. But deleting is even gayer.
I’ll just keep posting, keep the feed flowing like how a stream cleanses excrement
These crash out posts get too many interactions. But I don’t think I’ll delete them as I did in the past.
The goal is to document how my feelings change, and to potentially warn a young man with a soul like mine about the dangers of life.
When drunk, you’re always supposed to die by one of these
-bar brawl
-apprehension by authorities gone wrong
-suicide after being rejected by a woman
That’s why waking up the day after there’s much regret over behavior when drunk. You were supposed to just die.
I love being 5’10.5, in the middle of the distribution you can find smaller guys to molest, as well as larger guys to molest you.
The sun is shining so beautifully, I’ve forgotten my own body.
My troubles, they have no where to land.
Wish I had more of a natural inclination towards Christianity, Christian girls>buddhist girls. Imagine a girl contemplating impermanence while you’re fucking her
Last week a Korean girl with mochi cheeks invited me to church. SO IDEAL.
still can’t force myself to go
Money’s serious stuff- past vitality and freedom crystallized.
Really the only time it makes sense to transfer money is when you love someone deeply, like father to son.
Only other way to get money from someone is convincing them to sin- sex, drugs, gluttony. Forgetfulness.
Bit dramatic. Kind of interesting now that I’ve been assigned real responsibilities and people to manage.
Still sucks to have the entire day eaten up by work though. Just going to learn as much as I can so that by the time I inherit my father’s company I will be competent.
I’m too retarded and immature to engage in self-righteous anger. I will stop trusting this emotion from now on.
ball boy retweeted
I believe wholeheartedly that men don't want to be promiscuous, women make them this way by tying their self esteem to sex.
All my life, my greatest male friends and the only women I’ve been interested in, they have all been the oldest child.
What dat mean?