like i should just push her away completely because it could never work and dragging it on lile this is making it worse and its all my fault
i pushed away the only person i have left 😂😂😂😂😂😂 because im fucking stupid 😂😂😂😂 im so so so illl i hate myself i wish i was someone else
ive been regurgitating the same shit to my romantic partners for the past 8 years im so fucking annoyed my wounds run so deep and theyre still affecting the way i act to this day
i dont know why im so obsessed with being a sinner and repenting for my sins im not even religious but i feel this innate need to be forgiven by a god and to have my sins washed so i can be reborn i feel like im so thoroughly tainted and i dont know what to do
someone hurt me badly 8 years ago and all ive done is dug myself deeper into my own problems i dont know if i can come back im so ashamed

