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lower lip trembles, catches purple and orange lights of party in glitter gloss spread along brims. "no," he admits, clutching belongings until knuckles turn white. "that is the worst part. i hate that i don't hate you. not even a little bit, not even at all."
one step forward, four steps back. completely forgot why heโ€™s here, who heโ€™s here with, only the jump and stutter of heartbeat along with the voice of what should be a stranger. โ€œ do you hate me for it? โ€
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part of him wishes to call him selfish, but the other half understands unrequited love. isn't he doing the same, by asking him to tell him what magic spell or underground lab carries out memory deletion ? it's unfair, through any lens.
body reacts without his volition, hands stopped halfway in their effort to reach out and collect belongings, to give a hand. why, then, does his heart feel like it's cracking along the same lines? why, then, did he even wear this costume?
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"i wish this has helped ease the hurt, then," he retaliates, awfully truthful, syllables cracking at end of sentence. "and i genuinely wish you feel better."
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scoff escapes brims before he can stop it, incredulous. shaky, faux smile follows. how foolish, to have a sliver of hope for memories to flood back with admission. he shouldn't have come to this party. "right. whatever helps you sleep at night."
clinic. hyeonju. memory erasure. the altercation with kaori. another step taken back, expression going dreadfully pale. surely a mistake. definitely a mistake. and if not, well ... โ€œ iโ€“โ€“โ€“โ€“ shouldn't ... no, iโ€“โ€“โ€“ don't think i'm the one. โ€
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belongings that had been lying atop bar are quickly gathered, awkwardly held within digits. he should've brought a bag ! "like i said, it doesn't matter. you don't know me, and i'll pretend i don't know you. happily ever after, yeah ?"
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"you were my best friend !" cadence raises above music, attracts the attention of a few drunk party attendees nearby, but will does not falter, as if psyche couldn't register they're not alone in the room. "you were my ๐™ค๐™ฃ๐™ก๐™ฎ friend."
โ€œ if you're demanding answers from me like a madโ€“โ€“man, i deserve to know, too. โ€ heart clenches, stomach dips, like it knows something the mind does not. shakes it off, expression ices over. โ€œ why are you acting like we're exes? โ€
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doesn't need to elaborate more, with the way hurt laces into each syllable and lower lid adorned with black lines with pooling tears. leather wrapped around chest feels too tight.
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briefly do amber hues stray towards furled digits. knows it'll leave a mark, but does not reach to stop him as he usually would. sigh drips from vanillaโ€”glossed tiers, almost palpable in space between.
itโ€™s his turn to flinch, instinctively curling digits into palms and digging nails into the skin as part of longโ€”refined habit. canโ€™t tell if itโ€™s the alcohol, or something else, that leaves him stumbling.
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"does it matter how i know you ? it won't change the fact that you don't know who i am. you don't even know my ๐™ฃ๐™–๐™ข๐™š."
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๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™จ๐™๐™ค๐™ช๐™ก๐™™ ๐™—๐™š. albeit, apology only adds to the discomfort of it all. doesn't know what he's apologizing for, yet he does anyways. how unfair. anger floods ribcage, settles where it has no space. kaida has only known this anger towards injustice in childhood only.
ouch. take that as a rejection. a respective step back, hands slightly raisedโ€“โ€“โ€“ the memories of said altercation flooding back, unlike anything else, โ€œ sorry. โ€
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"how did you do it ?" he suddenly snaps, gaze steady, as it finally dares meet man who was once a friend. "how did you forget me ? because i'd really like to forget you."
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like a cornered, frightened animal, mortician flinches away. grip tightens around mask, digs into calloused hands. how unfair, for it to feel so familiar and for other to not remember. how kaida wishes to snap at him for all the hurt. in woosung's name, and his own.
lingering stare, cranium tilting slightly. memory clears, only slightโ€“โ€“โ€“โ€“ only partly. he leans in, towards ear, a result of the music blaring, โ€œ oh. you were at the rink the other day... right? โ€
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"no, sorry." cutthroat, immediate, only way he knows to shield himself, a mirage of high school days with milkโ€”dripping blazer and defensive mannerisms. not that jisu remembers that, anyways. a quick glance, and knows they're accidentally matching. how convenient.
gaze drapes downโ€“โ€“โ€“โ€“ or up, rather. sue himโ€“โ€“โ€“โ€“ before it lands on slightlyโ€“โ€“โ€“familiarโ€“โ€“face. adjusts the cuff of his poorlyโ€“โ€“strewn batman outfit. awkward. โ€œ hey, uh ... have you seen a guy around here? this tall? fluffy brown hair? โ€
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hands reach for abandoned mask, ready to flee. if he needed a reason to depart, this is the perfect one. "hope you find him."
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loud complaints die within throat as he turns to culprit of sudden shove, foxโ€”like hues growing double in size. a blink, and a squeeze to heart that still aches from memories ( or, lack thereof ). "sorry," he finds himself muttering, gaze dropped to bar in front of him. fuck.
a mirrored sense of being unaware, towering cranium dipping from side to side to try and findโ€“โ€“โ€“โ€“ oof. not him. โ€œ sorry, sorryโ€“โ€“โ€“ i didn't mean to bump into yoโ€“โ€“โ€“โ€“ oh. โ€
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doesn't know why he ended up here. he'd rather be curled in bed watching a movie with liver cuddled to his side, yet here he is, clad in leather from head to toe with a catโ€”eared superhero mask that digs too uncomfortably along cheekbones and head.
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