《Titus Redwind》 🔞

I try not to get too personal on main but I feel so strongly about something I saw and I feel like I need to speak on it. (TRIGGER WARNING FOR BELOW!!) . . . . . . . . . When I was in my 20's, I was molested by someone I trusted while I was asleep. That has affected me, how I approach relationships, and my wariness towards others, (especially men). It created this hurt, this deep resentment and paranoia that I am still fighting today. I was diagnosed with CPTSD about ten years later, and I'll admit some days are easier than others. Its difficult to accept help. Its hard for me to see good intentions in others, especially if they are strangers to me. I don't like to be touched unless I really trust someone. It's hard. I have nightmares about being stalked and murdered. I have really vicious, awful hallucinations that leave me paralyzed or unable to move. The point I'm trying to make is this: If you're like me, and your struggling, I want you to come to me. I want to share your pain and help you, if I can. I had a *really* bad night tonight, but I'm blessed to be in a safe place where no one can hurt me. I want to help you get there too. I can't imagine going through this alone. I'm sorry this was such a long post. I hope this explains my weirdness sometimes in social situatons, or my difficulty reaching out to others. Love you, my magpies. I'll be ok. Nil Desperandum. Never despair. 🎨- zzoku