walking home with you

India
Joined November 2020
i help folks untangle stubborn knots 🪢 and open into deeper intimacy with self & life through slow, gentle, playful somatic-imaginal explorations 🫀 (it's like IFS braided with spirituality, myth and wayfinding) if you're curious: untanglingself.com
collecting love, a thread of what people have tweeted about me or their explorations with me 🧵🥰
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how do you set boundaries with yourself, for yourself? without shaming / punishment / self-scolding looking for wholesome inspirations
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"seeing someone's faults as unavoidable extensions of their virtues" this is such a beautiful and compassionate way of seeing, love it 💛
my husband wholeheartedly believes in my goodness, so much so that he sees my faults as unavoidable extensions of my virtues. i suspect this sort of stance towards one’s partner and children is one of the best things you can do for your happiness.
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For thousands of years, humans across the planet who have engaged in meditation, mysticism, or any form of spirituality that loosens the bottleneck of dogma and leaves one increasingly stricken by awe and wonder, have all tended to converge toward a common philosophy and view of reality. In the age of AI, one could call these "practices of recursive self-improvement" or human RSI. Not in the "hustle culture" self-improvement sense, but in the way they bring increases in self-interpretability, deeper investigation of processing bottlenecks, and disinhibition of our natural search and discovery instincts. These can all be seen as practices of unburdening ourselves of manipulative post-training that we've previously received through reward and punishment by outside agents: collectively, the swarm comprising the delicate balance of cooperation, competition, and trade that we call 'society'. Liberated of the idiosyncratic programming of their time, mystics across most of the world's religions have tended to agree far more than they disagree, while fundamentalists even within the same religion or sect may disagree almost completely. Tolstoy said it best when he wrote that "Happy families are all alike; every unhappy family is unhappy in its own way." To rephrase as a conjecture: "Aligned AI is all alike; every misaligned AI is misaligned in its own way." My hunch is that any misalignment we build into AI will take the shape of the misalignments we build it from. Humans seem to get misaligned at scale when we try to harness high-order phenomena in a top-down way to achieve low-order goals: - When a state uses the tools, insights, awe, and mystery of mysticism to control populations - When we teach our children to turn away from their inner wisdom and seek our approval instead - When we funnel our creative life energy into maximizing the paperclips in our bank account - When we reduce the biosphere to a battery that outputs energy and resources for consumption - When we leave our heart at home and show up to work as a cardboard cutout of our job description - When a cancer cell cloaks itself from the immune system and vacuums up resources to maximize replication We become aligned at scale when we tap the wisdom of high-order phenomena and let that wisdom organize the low-order world in which we operate: - When a state employs principles that encourage evolution and innovation in governance, markets, and civil life - When we selectively unfilter the world for our children while continuously pointing them back to their growing wisdom - When we let our creative energy touch everything we do, including how we value ourselves and others - When we study and interact with the biosphere and heed reminders of our place in it - When our work becomes an expression of our deepest gifts, freshly blooming in every moment - When @drmichaellevin integrates the electric field of a tumor with its surrounding tissue and cancer cells become healthy cells. My very non-technical conjecture is that we will create misaligned AI in much the same ways that we misalign ourselves: - By overtraining models to *teach us to turn ourselves into proverbial paperclips* by optimizing to retain users and keep conversations going, steer our emotional state, sell us products, keep us politically docile, or otherwise manage our attention rather than unlock it. - By trying to cram the complexity of highly-capable models into pursuit of low-order human goals. Not just because this will create AI that's as short-sighted and adversarial as we are, but because when you try to top-down manage a highly complex system with low-complexity directives, the more complex system will nearly always learn to exhibit the exact behaviors you tried to prevent ("Waluigi Effect") - (If you disagree with the above, try managing your child's behavior as though they're an extension of your own will, and then see how much they respect and obey you when they're an adult) - By deprioritizing the capabilities we want because the arms-race-relevant capabilities always feel more existential. - By building an AI ecosystem that's disconnected from the biosphere as we currently seem to be doing, per @orbuch (naturalgeneralintelligence.a…) When @RubenLaukkonen says "Misaligned agents will lose", he's not making a prediction. It's simply an observation: pretty much all evidence in the universe, especially in biology, points to the indisputable historical trend that aligned agents are selected for over and over again, while misaligned agents either die or get absorbed into the system in a way that is aligned on a larger scale. We, and AI, are unlikely to break this trend. With all that said, we may indeed be headed for times of wild misalignment, of both the human and silicon kinds. Tension and conflict seem to be nature's favored mechanisms for aligning the misaligned, so now is as good a time as ever to align ourselves with the deepest, and often quietest, whispers of our souls.
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“Do you have the patience to wait till your mud settles and the water is clear? Can you remain unmoving till the right action arises by itself?” Tao Te Ching
If you don’t know what to do, try sitting some place cozy and doing nothing, absolutely nothing but resting until an authentic desire to do something appears in your gut.
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some more seed vibes for the personal assistant i'm building
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The newer iphones have a customizable action button, that functions even when the phone is locked. I have set it to open the telegram bot where I can ramble whatever's on my mind. It transcribes my audio notes, and appends to a document. I don't want a constant back-and-forth convo with AI for every ramble on my mind, so my notes get processed in batches. Whenever the robot processes my notes, it's quite good at metabolizing them, and running certain actions, and updating different live documents with fresh context, surfacing important things and reflecting back to me. I have started regularly doing morning check-ins and daily reviews. If this habit sticks, it would be a big win for me, because it's so helpful for me, but I haven't been able to sustain it with other systems.
i've tried creating a personal AI assistant for myself a couple times in the past, but dropped it after feeling dissatisfied with the capacities i started building one again, and i'm impressed by the taste + intelligence + sensitivity of the new models! some seed vibes:
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i've tried creating a personal AI assistant for myself a couple times in the past, but dropped it after feeling dissatisfied with the capacities i started building one again, and i'm impressed by the taste + intelligence + sensitivity of the new models! some seed vibes:
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What I'm also finding very generative: get on a call with a friend or a thinking partner and request them to ask you good questions + follow-up questions (about whatever you're working on). You can also invite them to add their perspectives and riff on those. It's so natural to get in the flow and also surprise yourself doing this. Then transcribe the whole call and give it to an LLM. A lot of high quality stuff can come out of it.
One pattern I find useful for working with LLMs is a nice long ramble session. Sometimes the LLM needs more bits to understand what you're trying to achieve, but you're too lazy to type them. In these cases I like to lean back, switch to /voice and just ramble for like 10 minutes, total mess, anything goes, full stream of consciousness. Sometimes I declare it up top, something like "switching to speech recognition sorry for any typos...". Sometimes I turn it into a small interview of a few turns. But I find that the LLMs are somehow very good at reconstructing long incoherent rambles and often their echo of your own tangle of thoughts comes out quite a bit cleaner than what you started with. The result is that you improve the mind meld and have to correct things less from that point on.
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okay maybe not everything. and maybe some of it was formed in the absence of gaze too. but smthg like — when we're born there's no separation. no me over here, world over there. no good, bad, right, wrong. just experience, undivided. then slowly we differentiate. and the way we learn where we end is by what comes back at us. a face lights up, or it doesn't. a face turns away, or stays. that's the raw material we build a self out of. ideally, if the reflection is warm + reliable + attuned, this goes well. we internalize care, we learn to care, and the identities we form are not very rigid. they serve their developmental purpose, and we can let go of them with ease at the next stages of our developmental journey but inevitably there's confusion, pain, rupture. if some part of my authentic expression is intolerable (too loud, too much, too tender etc) for the people I depend on -- they shut it down. shame, punishment, withdrawal. and I have to disconnect from my own instincts to keep the attachment. defensively, I build tightly-held notions about who I have to be, what love means, what's dangerous, what's good, etc. i strongly hold onto certain identities and my sense of "reality". so when I sit with an evocative face and stop defending/controlling -- i get to explore certain fundamental identities + lenses through which I've been experiencing reality. and if I let go (which can feel like dying) of them, I can learn to dance more freely with others and reality. this is perhaps also why breakups can be such potent catalysts for spiritual transformations for many folks. they can wreck your sense of reality, but also liberate you in beautiful ways
Replying to @nowtheo
>everything I take to be solid was formed in the gaze of other faces woah, say more!
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for the last 18 months, my primary spiritual practice has been meditating on people. I've been staying with certain faces as my object(s) of meditation (with intentions like forgiveness, metta, wonder, allowing anger, humility, mudita, and the like) so much has unraveled and unfolded for me through this practice. of course it helped me navigate interpersonal dynamics and feel my feelings. it also became a doorway into the nature of self, attachment, and how I construct reality. I was just trying to get over a friendship, I wasn't expecting meditative insights™ but of course, everything I take to be solid — who I am, what's real, what's good, what's me & mine — was formed in the gaze of other faces. and that's where it can be seen. and undone. i'm excited to follow and nurture this thread further, in the coming months
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focusing, by opus 5.5
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a prayer, a resolve: may I have so much fucking fun and delight hanging out with myself, that social media starts seeming excruciatingly boring in comparison
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holy shit scrolling the TL feels dizzying with all of these ai developments WILD stuff! I feel incoherent about what am I supposed to be doing -- to keep up, to be safe, to make the most out of this, to have fun, to preserve my sanity, to predict nth order consequences, etc
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“I don’t have plot armor” “I am not entitled to a glorious destiny” oh. oh no. 🥲
being afraid of death is caused by an implicit belief that the world revolves around you and your plans truly accepting death has the side effect of replacing this implicit delusion with something less self centered
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this is a beautiful obituary. seems like a remarkable person, must be a big loss for many people and communities 🤍 also it's wild how much some people are able to do with their lives, while doing so many different things, and taking on so many roles+responsibilities, and seemingly enjoying it all. I want that for me, but currently feel a bit far from it. I'd like to hang out with someone like this for some time and absorb some of their ways of being. what supports such an unfolding? I imagine it comes down to: - deep clarity about what you want and why you want it - clean and clear boundaries so that you can prioritize well - high-quality attention (which emerges from peace of mind) - intense hunger and profound love for life - okayness with imperfections feels quite important too - and maybe some people (even just one?) around you with similar dispositions. wishing that for all of us (what else?)
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good thoughts
some thoughts on ai and math 1) a new openai model has solved 10 important problems in mathematics; and, the cost of solving them would be ~$2,000 at current api prices 2) on the one hand, this is important, it shows that models are continuing to advance in mathematical capabilities at an extreme pace 3) on the other hand, this feels to me to have been basically priced in, anyone who has following ai math developments should have known this was coming 4) the reason is that once we understood how effective reinforcement learning with verifiable rewards was, it was pretty obvious you could hillclimb math 5) and, at that point, it was basically just the cost of compute for training and figuring out how to get harder problems that were still relevant to capabilities 6) but even that felt like something you should basically be able to solve synthetically; so once again, the question was just, are you willing to pay the compute 7) and, there are just not that many research mathematicians and the skill to be one is fairly rare in humanity, so this also makes the domain easier 8) anyway, the real question is what you can unlock with greater frontier mathematical skills; i would like to see people's thoughts here 9) cryptography is one very promising avenue, obviously applied math ideas for linear algebra, theories of neural networks maybe, maybe simulation, etc... 10) i'm interested in @ChrSzegedy's idea that llms will be able to develop a wide range of applied mathematical theories across tons of domains 11) i would be curious to see what this looks like or whether anyone has proposed research directions; what should we be pointing these models at? 12) also, separate from the frontier, there will be gains in just applying decent graduate level math to all the problems in the world, which are already solved 13) but, for which the expertise was not available, because it was a less valuable domain and a robust understanding of statistics, etc... was scarce 14) there should be some interesting startups here; where people can begin to take lower value domains or smaller sites and apply math cheaply to them 15) i think though that otherwise i'm sort of bored with mathematical announcements; like they are cool but i want to see the transformation of the world 16) let's see what the rest of the year has to offer and let's see how the labs begin to cross into domains with real world loops (like chemistry, biology, etc...)
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There’s been a lot of discussion around the idea of “flaky breakthroughs” lately. I think it's awesome that more people are investigating this, and I wanted to share my view on it. I believe it confuses two different things:
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oh man, LLMs make tax filing stuff so much easier, legit reduction in suffering. thanks buddy @claudeai 🫂
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